I am new to this forum. I have been looking for some time for a place to share and be understood with coping with major depression. I have tried out a few support groups, but I’ve never found a place that felt comfortable and truly supportive. Depression is very isolating, because people who do not have it think it is just sadness. Being someone with “smiling depression” makes me feel very isolated and lonely even though I am not alone. I feel like people often tell me how blessed I am and how great my life is. I’ve heard this my whole life, and, while I don’t really want to get into the struggle with depression, it bums me out to hear people effectively being jealous of my life while not knowing my struggle. I think there is probably some shame as well, because I am so unhappy and do not feel like my life is one I would wish upon someone else….that is, of course, if you include the depression and history of trauma in the whole package. Perhaps, if one were to carve out the good things, then maybe it would be a “good life” for someone to be jealous of. I don’t know if it is wrong to hate my life and want to escape it, but the darkness makes me want out most of them time.
Anyone else struggling in this way and wanting to share? It looks like there are a lot of recent posts on this site, so I am hoping that generating a conversation is possible.
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Hi FLOWERS46,
It sounds like you’re going through a bit of a rough patch. If you’d like to reach out, the FKB hotline is available 24/7 at 866-728-7983. Please don’t hesitate to give us a call.
Hello Flowers46,
I am new as of today to this forum also. I have been depressed for a long long time and I am at the point that I need some
help, it is really effecting my relationship with my wife and family. I wish I could fix myself but that hasn’t happened!
are you seeing a therapist or are you on any kind of medication?
and what stressors are in your life recently? i mean, you dont have to answer any of these questions, but if you want to talk about it, im here.
my depression and anxiety also gets in the way of my relationships with family, friends, even professors. i seem to be hurting a lot of people that i love. i think maybe you and i have that in common.
i am new to this. as of today, actually. maybe it would feel better to talk, if you want.
Hello Liliana,
As for me I just started taking cymbalta, and Im not sure I like it so far. It sorta add’s a layer of fog .
Have reached out to a therapist and am waiting for a call back. I want my life back but I seem to be falling deeper and deeper into a hole. how long have you had your depression? for me maybe a lot longer than I realize.
I have lost interest in all hobbies. Can not seem to get motivated to do the most simplest of task’s.
Have been on pain meds for years due to neck pain caused by degenerative disc. Which also screws with my head.
My wife knows of my depression but the rest of my family does not, they are busy working and raising there families.
My pain meds doc has me on Buprenorphine to ease my neck pain, I wonder if that drug is messing with my head.
I will stop now, whats your story?