I am very sad to see you leave. We have been working together for two years. During those years we have accomplished a lot. I have transitioned from a person that was afraid of others, a person who had no voice and was afraid to stand up for herself, a person who had stuffed down her feelings, and a person who was afraid to accept compliments from others. Before we started working together I didn’t know what a safe relationship without abuse was like. I have transitioned to a person that has learned coping skills to helps with the tough stuff, I now somewhat able to ask for help when I need it. As much as I don’t like it I no longer stuff my feelings down. The emotions now have a mind of their own and come out when they want to. I have learned to say NO and stand up for myself when I know the way that I’m being treated is not right.
Saying NO and standing up for myself has gotten me to where I am at today. I am now in my own apartment with my service dog. I live in a safe place where I can let my guard down. A place where a there is no one to abuse me, tell me what to do something and when to do it. I receive some help with rent, but I contribute to the bills. I get to contribute to my life and not have someone do it for me.
Even though I don’t have hardly any friends, I know that I have an entire support system. Of people that are there for me, when it feels like I can’t handle life and want it all to end. With one phone call there is someone on the other end to be there for me. As well as my support system I have my service dog who works 24/7, and I get to bring him to all of my appointments. All I have to do is look down and he is there and look next to me and there is a person who can help me with whatever I need. Whether its to help calm me down by distraction, talk to me or for some other reason, and many other things.
There are no words to express how thankful I am for all your help, and what you have done for me. I know secretly that you will be rooting for me. You have help pave the road for my next therapist and what they will bring to the table for me. I hope that my next therapist is just as good as you and have even more thing to help me. That they help me get me through my trauma.
So even though I am going to miss having you as my therapist. That little voice in my head of you helping stop me from doing stupid things, will always be there. I will always be able to tell the difference in my head, the adult self who can be rational. As well as that scared little person who has been through so much trauma and abuse, that needs help. Help getting through the trauma and abuse. I will be in the hands of the next therapist, to help aid in the next phase of things.
So even though it is going tough to say goodbye, and will miss you! Thank you for everything that you have done for me! Its not goodbye its see you later.