Life was good.  Life involved hitting my bed on a bedrail.  Since then, Life has been out-of-control.  Life isn’t taking showers.  Or taking medications at the right time.  And having horific nightmares.  And forgetting too be nice to others.  Weird behavior changes.  Now best friend just can’t cope with Life anymore.  What does Life do?  Life has already thought of … Read More

Thoughts:  ummm, let’s see….forgot it.. no one gives a blan about me.  no hospital helps me anymore. they just feed me, give me meds., tell me sleep for the night…and babysit me..  I’ll do my own blankity blank hospital at home in a safe environment with my stuffed animals.  Screw the hospitals.  screw the police. screw the ambulence crew.  screw … Read More

My favorite question for the last two years!! Honestly does it even mather what I say? I could lie and say yes but we all know it’s not true. .. However the truth I’m not and haven’t been for a long time doesn’t seem to matter not like it ever had in the first place…  I’m tired though of it … Read More

Depression can feel like a dark cloud over our heads or a heavy weight on our chests. Sometimes it feels like there aren’t any words to explain what we’re feeling. What helps you express yourself when you’re feeling depressed? 

I never feel well! The worse I feel the more people think I’m just kidding when they ask how I am and I answer I don’t know anymore or if I’m ok and I straight tell them no I’m not ok I haven’t been and that is the sad truth yet it’s the main reason I’m in the unwanted situations … Read More

Unknown noise is triggering my PTSD and affecting my sleep tonight.  The unknown noise reminds me of a song : “So high, you can’t go over it.  So low, you can’t go under it.  So big, you can’t go thru it. (So loud, you can’t sleep thru it).  So you must climb over it.  One step at a time”.  So … Read More

Self-care is so vital  to everyone including yourself.  Even if  you are healthy or sick with an illness, self-care is important.   Taking care of yourself includes doing actions in the five domains:  physical health, emotional health, mental health, sexual health, and spiritual health.   So I ask each one of you tonight,  are you providing self-care in your daily … Read More

I am wondering  if I am heard here,… or I`m wandering… let me know so it will be obvious that I am NOT “lost” in this new “landscape…….     Cody

Courage is found by taking teeny tiny steps forward.  I finally decided to take a step forward today.  I called a friend to tell her what her brother asked me to do (sex for money).( Of course, I immediately said NO to him.)  The courage of telling the friend about it took some weight off my shoulders.  The courage I … Read More

Due to horrible landlord who gives out violations that don’t even break the lease policy, I am sooooo trapped.  I want out of this building, but I got more worries on my mind.  It’s sooooo bad that I over medicate myself so I can have some peaceful sleep and be ‘out’ of my troubles.  Sorry to say but I know … Read More