Depression & Anxiety – day 2

Good Morning to you reading this… this is day 2 of my struggles.  It’s not a good day for me.  I can not seem to shake these feelings today.  My mind is in overload and my emotions are raw to the point that I can not breathe.  I feel as if I could break in half at any time.  These are the days that I don’t want to get out of bed or even deal with the daily schedule without crying.  There are so many things that I need to take care of but I just can not get myself to care.  It’s debilitating and I am embarrassed to even say these things. I am a strong person, but today, I just can not handle it.  I know that I am extremely hard on myself, constantly pushing myself and telling myself ” You have to deal with this, what is your problem, you are a strong person and we were not raised to give up!”  But again, today I just want to crawl back in bed and sleep the day away instead of dealing with it!  I hope by putting these feeling down on this blog will help me gather the strength I need to get things done today.    Today I am asking why??  Why are these things happening to me?  Why do I feel this way?  What happen to me to not care anymore?  Why can I not snap out of this funk I am in?  I am a good person and have always been the one to rescue or solve everyone’s problems no matter what it is and now that I have fallen into this black hole, I can not help myself.