I’ve been a bit down for a few weeks and needed an outlet. I found this site and thought I’d give it a try. I started journaling every day to start documenting how my days are going and how I am feeling throughout the day. I am starting to see a recurrence. I am up late every night until 2 or 3 or even 5 in the morning because my brain won’t shut off. I am skipping college classes because I don’t want to leave the confinements of my dorm room. I don’t have a roommate either so I don’t have someone to encourage me to move forward like it is any other day.
There are things that I do to keep myself from being too down in the day. One is that I watch a LOT of youtube. I mostly watch channels like Markiplier and Jacksepticeye. Mostly Jacksepticeye though.
I smile every time I watch his videos. He is also a huge support for mental health and is always open to his viewers. Markiplier is a way to get a couple laughs out I guess. I like to watch The Sim Supply and BetaPixl as well.
Another thing I do is draw. I am an art major at Northern Michigan University and I kind of have to draw a lot but I like it anyway. I draw because it is an escape from the real world for a while. I am studying illustration, learning the basics of what it can lead to. I am in the 300 level course now though. I like to draw characters and just doodles of a new world. I listen to music when I am drawing just so I am aware that I am not in the real world. I sometimes like to just sit and ignore everything.
I do talk to my mom about a lot of my problems. I am happy that she is someone that I can always turn to. She deals with depression every day so it is nice to go ask for advice from her. I do suffer from anxiety as well. I’ve been on medication for anxiety for about 5 or 6 years now. I am now having to set up an appointment with my doctor to talk about my current situation, but it’s only for the good. I need to know what is happening and how to move forward.