Hello,
I recently lost my job, and this has brought back all the old feelings of despair, hopelessness, helplessness and panic. It’s this incredible darkness that threatens to completely overwhelm me; it’s like this inky thick blackness. I have PTSD and struggle with isolation. I’m trying to get connected. I’ve been doing all the wrong things to move forward, things that make me even more vulnerable instead of comfort or heal. It’s not advice or tips I seek, but just support. I’m just looking for a word from someone who understands what this feels like and is cool with metaphorically sitting nearby and sharing electronic space, if you will. Do you understand this blackness? This heaviness? This dread? It’s like wherever I go, whatever new job I find….will be desperately bad.
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Kelly,
Know how you feel. Lost my job about three months ago. There are days I wake and hope it was just a nightmare. Some nights I go to sleep unable to doze off because I’m so stressed out. Yes, the isolation is the worst. I live alone. The only companion I have a night are my problems. Have a network of friends but the support wears off like aspirin or Tylenol at the end of the four hour cycle. I have good days and bad days. It’s a sickening roller coaster. Sometimes I call the crisis/suicide hotline just so I have someone to talk to. People try to say and do the right thing, and mean well, but it doesn’t help. Feel like I’m drowning in the middle of a raging ocean and they ask if I ever considered swimming lessons.
Alone