I feel pretty hopeless and alone lately. I don’t really know why. It’s Spring and the weather is nicer. It seems like I should feel better and want to do more things outside, but I don’t. The days are longer and they feel too long. It’s too much time in one day
I have the feeling of wishing I wouldn’t wake up in the morning. I have my cat to take care of so I do get up, one foot in front of the other. Feed the cat, pet the cat, try to have energy to play with the cat. Guilt for not being better for her.
It’s hard to see that things will get better. Self injuring again, working on harm reduction with my therapist because that’s the best I can do right now and it feels like failure.
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I don’t have any advice but I want to say this is very relatable. I have something in my life that, if I didn’t, I also probably wouldn’t want to wake up anymore.
I hope your therapist is a good therapist and is able to help.
Lauren and Justaspekt,
I appreciate that you are both so open and honest with your current feelings. I can agree that at times the days feel too long with too much time to fill. That can easily make it more overwhelming. Please know that you can always chat or call (866.728.7983) us at FKB if you need some extra support on your side. I think it is normal to feel that you are frustrated when you are unable to feel more success than putting one foot in front of the other. But I want to commend you for taking these steps, even as they feel small, but are essential. Please keep taking small steps to care for yourself and know that feelings can wax and wane which can make them challenging to navigate but they do not last forever.
~Toni (FKB Staff)
Thanks to both of you for reading and commenting.