This morning my boyfriend and I began a conversation that started with how Tom Brady (Patriots’ Quarterback) has a personal trainer that’s been working with him (nutrition, yoga, etc) because he realized he couldn’t continue playing football on strength training alone. I agreed. As we age flexibility becomes more and more important as an addition to a balanced cardio/strength training … Read More

I lost my best friend of 16 years yesterday. I’ve bonded with several cats in my lifetime and each time I say that I won’t ever experience that closeness. I’m saying it again this time. Diego and I even shared a birthdate (4/4) which made us as much alike as a human and cat can be. Before we moved in … Read More

Growing up I was so beautiful , happy and had lots of friends. I was very good at any sport I played. I really have no reason to suddenly push everyone away and walk home from school crying  everyday. I was never bullied i just was sad and it drove me crazy not knowing why. After a few years of … Read More

After closing the book I finished reading, a singular thought materialized:  “I don’t feel safe.” It was the oddest thing. I’m not sure if something in the book (The Funhouse by Koontz) triggered this or what, but usually when something hits out of nowhere it’s important to take note. What’s even more relevant is when I mulled it over a … Read More

I blame it on the fact that I am Anal-Retentive. Big-time. I googled “anal-retentive” and had to laugh at the results – almost every one fit me to a T! I like being orderly. (Just look at the way I’ve organized my website.) I like things “a certain way”. Actually, I like a lot of things a certain way; however, … Read More

I waited till 2am to pick up my phone and till my husband turned over.im laying here wide awake.ugh yet another night sleep will escape me till after 3am.i having so much going on right now saturday evening was horrible. Gotta go

Having lost everything im barely going. Maybe it will be over soon.

I have a website where I write about things and activities I enjoy.  Although I am trying to open-up more in my Posts there, I find I’m just not comfortable getting too deep into what I’m feeling. Here at FKB I’m not uncomfortable. There’s a certain anonymity here that makes it easier to confide. That and the fact that no … Read More

well i guess im going to ramble on here daily. Last night was rather rough went into fits of extreme rage and when not angry i would contemplate hanging myself. Hands are pretty bruised due to apparently wanting to box a door. I did however get in contact with a few friends and even made a new one yesterday. Well … Read More

Just a few months ago i was diagnosed with bipolar depression. I have not been dealing well … not that i really have ever dealt with it. I also around the same time stopped working to pursue school again. Now you would think that this is a good thing but it all comes together to this very day where I … Read More